I am super guilty of playing the disappearing act. So, I won't pretend like I don’t know that. This should be a sequel of my Love. Trauma. Repeat episode. But, guess who's spicing it up to recount my very interestingly tumultuous year? Yes. So, buckle up for an amazing ride as we go through my journey this eventful year.
Since this is a routine with everyone on earth, we’ll start off gloating about my music taste and how much I’ve grown as a lover of music this year. I’m currently listening to Brymo’s classic album, Oso and boy,,,, how did this not make it to my top streamed album on my Spotify Wrapped this year? Well, we will never know. I floated through this year with very soul filled music by great artists such as Seal, Ms. Lauryn Hill, Michael Bolton, 9ice, 2face, Whitney, Mariah, Style Plus, Timi Dakolo, Celine Dion, Asa, Adele, Sam Smith, Kendrick Lamar and Nicki Minaj, emphasis on Nicki Minaj. I also explored Sir. Shina Peter's Afro Juju and King Sunny Ade's classic Merciful God. Ohh how much we need to go back to making timeless music as a generation. I can say that this girl is gradually growing and her music style is morphing into laid back and chill, except for the Nicki and Kendrick part, they bring out Roman in me. One of Asa's album, Asa Live in Lagos held me through this year and I'm sure you want to find out how I discovered this timeless work of art somewhere in this.
I'm sorry to break it to you all this way, but I have had a total of 460 weddings with all my loves I've come across. In girl math, that's me telling you the number of eye candies I've met this year and I have scheduled a wedding and a perfect life with in my head. This is the part where you grab a bottle of water or maybe coke, if you’re still on carbonated drinks. I don't have a strong memory of anyone I met in January and is that really the time for that. That month kicks all our asses after a long holiday and I started my role as the comms intern at the organization I work at, so… I just realized it’s the same with February and say the next three months as well. (Inserts God abeg emoji) Okay, I won't act like at some point this boy did not enter the picture and we was kicking it and by kicking it, I meant talking and hanging out. And at some point, things just got stale because I realized all men do, especially Unilag men do is lie. I was super sad because this boy was probably it and I enjoyed the company while it lasted.. Not so long after did this other boy also entered the picture and we was kicking it, until we wasn't anymore at least, me. Ouchhhhh I may be the problem, cause my moving onto the next game is really out of this world and no, this isn't a cry for help. Maybe it's just a phase.
What's that word about never kicking with someone you used to see, considering how the split happened. Ohh boy, I tried to get with someone I used to before and someone said and I quote "What is with you and taking your exes back?" Ye!!! (Exclaims in sharp pain and inserts crying emoji) Since that moment, I thought about the situation and boy must I say I'm glad that whole situation is over. Look at what loneliness makes humans do. I also did end a long time friendship that had morphed into a toxic situation, I feel great every time I remember I had the strength to finally be done and even more stupid for taking that that long to move on. It drained me physically, mentally and spiritually. I am not where I want to but I am a step closer every day. Maturing is also realizing there's also a pattern of inconsistency with me and some guys I talk to, so in the new year, that'll definitely not be entertained. I want to be locked in so bad for myself. Enough with the boy talks. I am super grateful for my friends. I love you all so much. I do not do my best with keeping up and even checking in, but I love how I know you all have my back whenever I need y'all.
Cheers to me for trying out new things and visiting new places courtesy my work of course. From Abeokuta, Ibadan, to Osun and Abuja. I can say I spent more time away from home this year in my entire life. Guess who's manifesting expanding her horizon next year? Yes, so cheers to God doing his big one as usual. With work and even new things I'll be trying out next year, I am super prepared and confident in God to give me the strength needed to carry-on.
It is quite strange that I came across a quote of some sort this year "may my days be rough, so that I have the courage to face life head-on" You can already guess that I spent the entire week pondering what the effect of that quote. I mean, I'm just a baby girl and I want an extremely soft-life. It also dawned on me that every new thing I have been able to do as a young woman wasn't exactly in a cozy space. It took learning the hard way, crying at every point, making mistakes, doubting myself and getting under the heat to learn these things and it doesn't get harder than that. So yes, may my days be rough. I don’t know if I am at the strength level I need to face even rougher days but I trust the Good Lord to be with me through this.
I am also glad to announce I have set my goals for the new year and this is me just putting it out there so io can check in whenever I write to y'all. If it came across your mind that my first goal is to write even more to y'all, we should probably be tying the knot, so hit me up, let's fix a date and forever would be history.
2024 was all that I thought it'll be and even came with loads of surprises
Here’s to making better decisions in 2025,
Stepping up in 2025,
Locking in and excelling,
Going through 2025 and coming out unscathed,
Breathing and loving,
Healing all round,
Experiencing life without constant anxiety,
A better sleep routine and a finer body,
A sweet man of God, or maybe not,
Here's to being me unapologetically.
With all my love,
Your friend,
Ayo.